Ella

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I was so scared but it was right and I know deep in my heart now.

2014 New Zealand

While I was pregnant I felt a great deal of things but, because of the length of the process and being so sure when it happened, I knew I'd made the right decision. Right now it's one week on and things have been a bit up and down but on the whole I am feeling relieved, and happy to make these decisions later on in life.

I choose a medically induced abortion. I wanted to do this because it was at home where it was private and I felt safe. The most frightening time was putting the pills in. I had to do that myself and I was shaking so much I didn't think I could. I did it though and I knew there was no going back. The contractions got progressively more painful and I started bleeding almost straight away. I locked myself in the bathroom as I neared the time I was going to pass the pregnancy. This was stupid in retrospect but all I could think about was the shame. Unfortunately I had a reaction to the painkiller meds or something like that and had to call my partner in because I was having blurred vision and thought I was going to hemorrhage. My partner called the hospital while this was happening but everything was going to be okay. I didn't realise with all the pain and dizzying effects of the reaction when I passed the pregnancy. I had wanted to bury its remains, but I just didn't know when it happened. Eventually I realised the contractions were decreasing but I was too exhausted to tell my partner. I would lie on my knees to rest on the relief sides of the contractions until the pain started again. Eventually I got up enough energy to tell my partner I was okay, and to move to the bed. I was so exhausted afterwards. I slept for a few hours. I was most suprised by feelings of immediate relief, and *knowing* straight away I wasn't pregnant anymore.

Did the illegality of your abortion affect your feelings?

Yes, even though it was legal I had to go through many appointments and referrals. Every time I had to explain and defend my reasons for wanting this. It was hard but it could have been so much worse. I was so relieved that the hospital and clinic were so supportive, kind, and understanding. I couldn't help thinking how much worse it could have been for me.

How did other people react to your abortion?

I only told my mum and my current partner and I was four weeks in before I told anyone. I was scared to tell them at all I just thought I could do it all myself. But their reactions were beautiful and so unexpected. They treated me with so much love and were towers of strength throughout the entire process.

Emily

Bom, acabei de passar pelo procedimento e vim relatar a minha história para que…

Ididit

Miałam aborcję wykonaną farmakologicznymi środkami otrzymanymi od Fundacji…

I had an abortion and I'm not ashamed

Gaby

No me arrepiento

Francisca

yo encauce mi destino...

Jezzi

Yo aborte con cinco semanas de gestación.... En el mi corazón siempre vivirás.

Ananda

No es mi primera vez, es mi segunda vez que lo hago y no me arrepiento.

Samanta

Uma escolha difícil.

Montse

"Un acto amoroso"

Casey

Medical abortion, 19 years old

Sol

Yo interrumpí un embarazo no deseado.

mimi

mi aborto. siempre te voy a recordar pequeña semillita

sorrow

Najtragiczniejsze doświadczenie w życiu...


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Cristina Lima

Fiz um aborto.

inteldeath

It was the right decision, and it is my choice.