britta

Something that has carried with me ever since.

2013 United States

selfish resolved numb relieved confused in doubt sure guilty afraid sad

a feeling of knowing I had to do this, but still tittering on the fence of wanting to love a child that was my own. An odd mixture of emotions.

with medicines by myself

I thought it was going to be less invasive, and less cold with surgical tools. But somehow, taking the pill at home, basically alone(mother in another room) it felt more alone than anything. Almost worse than what I thought it would feel like in a medical office.

financial issues my education my age (too young or old) problems with my relationship my personal reasons for not wanting a child mental health reasons

Did the illegality of your abortion affect your feelings?

It was legal, in the state of California gaining access to an abortion is somewhat easier. But still with limitations, heavy payment, and low access to mental health associates for aftercare.

How did other people react to your abortion?

I have only shared my abortion story with close friends, my mother and father, and the father of the "child"(who hasn't shared any information with his family, and thats totally understandable).

legal

no religion