Lindseymae Mckay

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My name is Lindseymae McKay. I will be 32 years old next week. I have a 6 year old son who is truly the only reason I breathe. I’ve had several abortions. None of which I have ever felt any guilt or remorse; in fact, all I ever felt was relief.
That was until my most recent procedure.
About a month ago I realized I was pregnant. I knew before I took a pregnancy test & knew that I would want an abortion. After the pee-stick confirmation at home, I took the next few necessary steps in scheduling my abortion appointment at the local clinic. I was early enough in the pregnancy to have the option of using the medical abortion versus the in-clinic, vacuum procedure (which really sucks, no pun intended). So about two weeks ago, I went to clinic, heard the same ole song-and-dance about when to take the pills, what to expect, what warning signs to be aware of, bla-bla-bla. As expected, it was a fairly painful ordeal with heavy bleeding, extreme discomfort, with a supportive and clueless partner by my side. Now, here I sit in my bathroom in the middle of the night, wondering if this HUGE bloody booger thing that just fell outta me is the unwanted fetus. It looks like a cranberry covered wonton that, seriously, has the classic fetus shape to it. Now- instead of just flushing it down the toilet, I carefully put it onto a piece of
Toilet paper and instantly went online googling what the
Possibilities were of this gory splotch being the thing I wanted out of me- and if so- why do I feel so guilty about it? Why am I sitting here holding my tears back examining this thing looking for little fingers or toes? What the hell is wrong with me? And now I get it. I’m human. Despite the relief I feel at knowing I’m not going to be having another child, I feel horribly irresponsible and overwhelmingly selfish. I am sure this will not last. At least I hope it doesn’t. I’m sharing this story hoping someone see will share something similar and make me
Feel like I’m less
Of a monster for doing this not once but several times.

2019 United States

Painful but effective

Ano ang reaksyon ng ibang tao sa iyong pagpapalaglag?

They encouraged it.

Brenda

Having an abortion was the right thing for my family.

Javi

La historia, tal cual, detrás mi aborto

Lisal M. C

It was a big decided that I made in my life. I had a complexity relationship…

Amanda

E não me arrependo, não se culpe por isso
Você é dona de si.
Eu sou bem jovem

Gadzinka

Moja aborcja przemineła tak jak miała , wziełam tabletki potem dojadałam .

K

Medical abortion is easy, provides instant relief

sogoodtobebad stassia

Dziewczyny ! nie bójcie się ! nie taki diabeł straszny jak go malują. Jeżeli…

Mayra

Yo aborté a las 7 semanas y fue la mejor decisión.

Ninjanu

Friday, July 13th, 2012
9:03AM.
Hmm, he was supposed to be here by now… I sigh…

ana maria Duque

I had an abortion but this wasn't easy I was very afraid, but i never regret…

julie

My life became changed

Madison

Una lucha constante.

Saraith saraith

Perdoneme mi bebe, te amare siempre!

Nara

Eu descobri a gravidez com 10 semanas,tomava Yasmin a 4 anos,assim que comecei…

qbAnchic

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Carol

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