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My abortions defined my life choices for decades

1986 United States

I was “that” girl that everyone didn’t want to be friends with and having been raised in a very dysfunctional family where no love was expressed physically I validated myself by having sex with men. I was rejected by most men unless they wanted sex from me and I naively played with fire. I had my first abortion at age 22 and my second at age 23, both in clinics that I found in the phone book. I told no one, except for one person who knew me and my family situation. It took me decades to process what happened to me because I was unaware of how to get support and I didn’t feel safe revealing this to anyone. My career choices and educational goals were affected by both my abortions and I’ve never had a functional romantic relationship workout. The shame of having an abortion, combined with the lack of community and family support as well as constant denial of my emontions led me down a path of needing an outlet for my pain and anger-so I put my energies into sports. I had always been a gifted athlete and I spent my entire later 20’s getting a college degree and pursuing athletics. Society defines women as “good” or “bad” and in many countries not having children labels women as sinister, selfish beings. Personally, I don’t trust many women and most men enough to share my history and it takes a great deal of convincing to make me believe a person really would understand my experience or choices. It’s because most people are culturally conditioned to criticize everything women do, how they look and so forth. Now I am 54 and I’m invisible in most parts of society and nobody cares about my reproductivity anymore and all focus is on youth. My thoughts about the world—-I believe that education can create a strong, enlightened culture. We have the potential for a worldwide movement that can save the planet but unfortunately the daily news shows that we are heading in a direction and depleting our resources with reckless abandon, much like I did in my own life leading up to my abortions. I live a quite, monastic life now and am trying to decrease my carbon footprint in the hopes to balance out the overpopulation on our planet. Peace.

Both times were done in a clinic.

I did not want a child and both men told me they weren’t interested in a relationship with me.

How did other people react to your abortion?

Rejected me socially and emotionally. I hid it as best as I could but it changed me deeply. I hated myself for years and never had children because of it.

Dani

Aborto a las 4 semanas, perdóname mi ángel.

Lisa

I always thought I cannot be pregnant, as I was diagnosed with primal…

Daniela

Tengo una hija de 4 años, pero aun asi yo aborte este año.

Natali

no es una decisión fácil, tienes que tomar los pros, contras y ponerlos en una…

Someone Great

It wasn’t the easiest thing, but it was the best thing I could have done for…

Ana Vargas

Mi aborto lo hice a los 14años hoy tengo una hija de 23 años y un hijo de 17…

justin ..

NIGDY NIE MÓW NIGDY! ..kiedyś powiedziałam sobie, że aborcja nigdy nie będzie…

Ronnie

because the time just wasn't right for me.

Patricia Bronstein

I was married and had known since an early age that I did not want to be a…

Laura

Fue una difícil decisión a pesar que no es mi primer aborto. Sé que tengo un…

Lu

Unexpected feelings

Emmy Smith

It was the best decision of my life

Bárbara

Fiz o procedimento ontem e quero contar com riqueza de detalhes , por isso…

julie

My life became changed

Fernanda

Escrevo esse depoimento por intermédio do meu parceiro e por mim, que passamos…