My name is Lindseymae McKay. I will be 32 years old next week. I have a 6 year old son who is truly the only reason I breathe. I’ve had several abortions. None of which I have ever felt any guilt or remorse; in fact, all I ever felt was relief.
That was until my most recent procedure.
About a month ago I realized I was pregnant. I knew before I took a pregnancy test & knew that I would want an abortion. After the pee-stick confirmation at home, I took the next few necessary steps in scheduling my abortion appointment at the local clinic. I was early enough in the pregnancy to have the option of using the medical abortion versus the in-clinic, vacuum procedure (which really sucks, no pun intended). So about two weeks ago, I went to clinic, heard the same ole song-and-dance about when to take the pills, what to expect, what warning signs to be aware of, bla-bla-bla. As expected, it was a fairly painful ordeal with heavy bleeding, extreme discomfort, with a supportive and clueless partner by my side. Now, here I sit in my bathroom in the middle of the night, wondering if this HUGE bloody booger thing that just fell outta me is the unwanted fetus. It looks like a cranberry covered wonton that, seriously, has the classic fetus shape to it. Now- instead of just flushing it down the toilet, I carefully put it onto a piece of
Toilet paper and instantly went online googling what the
Possibilities were of this gory splotch being the thing I wanted out of me- and if so- why do I feel so guilty about it? Why am I sitting here holding my tears back examining this thing looking for little fingers or toes? What the hell is wrong with me? And now I get it. I’m human. Despite the relief I feel at knowing I’m not going to be having another child, I feel horribly irresponsible and overwhelmingly selfish. I am sure this will not last. At least I hope it doesn’t. I’m sharing this story hoping someone see will share something similar and make me
Feel like I’m less
Of a monster for doing this not once but several times.
2019 United States
Painful but effective
How did other people react to your abortion?
They encouraged it.
Lo hice por amor al bebé, no me merecía como mamá.
O pesadelo de uma gravidez indesejada.
Oi amigas, primeiramente gostaria de dizer que eu entendo exatamente o quê…
Como abortar en una ciudad donde es penalizado el aborto las primeras semanas.
Yo aborté porque es mi derecho
Something that has carried with me ever since.
La historia, tal cual, detrás mi aborto
My perception of so many things changed a lot with this experience and realised…
Mam 20 lat i zupełnie nie byłam przygotowana na ciąże.
Ja i mój chłopak…
I had an abortion
Nunca me senti tão sozinha!
Todo va a pasar, hace apenas 72 hs que termino pero se me han hecho eternas, se…
Nunca imaginei que precisaria passar por isso
Basically I found out two weeks ago that I was pregnant, to my shock and awe…
Friday, July 13th, 2012
Hmm, he was supposed to be here by now… I sigh…
Por siempre y para siempre en mi mente.
Esto marcó mi vida, pero agradezco a Dios por esta segunda oportunidad
Medical abortion is easy, provides instant relief
Yo aborte. No culpo por haberlo hecho, sino por no haberme cuidado. Desde el…