Lindseymae Mckay

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My name is Lindseymae McKay. I will be 32 years old next week. I have a 6 year old son who is truly the only reason I breathe. I’ve had several abortions. None of which I have ever felt any guilt or remorse; in fact, all I ever felt was relief.
That was until my most recent procedure.
About a month ago I realized I was pregnant. I knew before I took a pregnancy test & knew that I would want an abortion. After the pee-stick confirmation at home, I took the next few necessary steps in scheduling my abortion appointment at the local clinic. I was early enough in the pregnancy to have the option of using the medical abortion versus the in-clinic, vacuum procedure (which really sucks, no pun intended). So about two weeks ago, I went to clinic, heard the same ole song-and-dance about when to take the pills, what to expect, what warning signs to be aware of, bla-bla-bla. As expected, it was a fairly painful ordeal with heavy bleeding, extreme discomfort, with a supportive and clueless partner by my side. Now, here I sit in my bathroom in the middle of the night, wondering if this HUGE bloody booger thing that just fell outta me is the unwanted fetus. It looks like a cranberry covered wonton that, seriously, has the classic fetus shape to it. Now- instead of just flushing it down the toilet, I carefully put it onto a piece of
Toilet paper and instantly went online googling what the
Possibilities were of this gory splotch being the thing I wanted out of me- and if so- why do I feel so guilty about it? Why am I sitting here holding my tears back examining this thing looking for little fingers or toes? What the hell is wrong with me? And now I get it. I’m human. Despite the relief I feel at knowing I’m not going to be having another child, I feel horribly irresponsible and overwhelmingly selfish. I am sure this will not last. At least I hope it doesn’t. I’m sharing this story hoping someone see will share something similar and make me
Feel like I’m less
Of a monster for doing this not once but several times.

2019 United States

Painful but effective

How did other people react to your abortion?

They encouraged it.

Genoveva

Yo aborté

enfermera

Antes de hacer cualquier cosa infórmate muy bien para tomar la decisión…

Francis

Una decisión consciente de vida

maly min

Si, yo una vez estuve embarazada, de eso no hace mucho y cuando me entere llore…

Flor de Luna

Piloto automático, pero no me arrepiento

Magda

To była moja decyzja!

elena

interrumpi un embarazo de 6 semanas

Ka

O dono do meu corpo e do meu destino sou eu, e não a sociedade hipócrita e…

Duaa

I had an abortion in a country where I could get killed if I had sex before…

Emi

Fiz um aborto porque adoro crianças e acredito que só podemos deixar um…

Luana Oliveira Jacob

Fiz um aborto - E me senti aliviada.Cada dia que me deito para dormir, fico…

Constanza

Aborto seguro, entorno amoroso

carolina

Interrumpi mi embarazo de un mes y medio

Maiara Rejane

Não havia outra alternativa.
Dia 02 de Julho, voltava de uma festa, havia bebido…

Ianne

A cry of freedom for all women who are dictated by the mentality of the norms…

Ani

I had a 'NO SHAME' abortion

Paulina

Zrobiłam to, mimo że nigdy nie myślałam że będę potrzebować takiej pomocy. Mimo…

Karolina

Historia jakich wiele, jedna nieprzemyślana decyzja i stało się - test wychodzi…

Renata k

Fiz um aborto, foi uma escolha. Apesar do medo, foi muito tranquilo e não me…