Lindseymae Mckay

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My name is Lindseymae McKay. I will be 32 years old next week. I have a 6 year old son who is truly the only reason I breathe. I’ve had several abortions. None of which I have ever felt any guilt or remorse; in fact, all I ever felt was relief.
That was until my most recent procedure.
About a month ago I realized I was pregnant. I knew before I took a pregnancy test & knew that I would want an abortion. After the pee-stick confirmation at home, I took the next few necessary steps in scheduling my abortion appointment at the local clinic. I was early enough in the pregnancy to have the option of using the medical abortion versus the in-clinic, vacuum procedure (which really sucks, no pun intended). So about two weeks ago, I went to clinic, heard the same ole song-and-dance about when to take the pills, what to expect, what warning signs to be aware of, bla-bla-bla. As expected, it was a fairly painful ordeal with heavy bleeding, extreme discomfort, with a supportive and clueless partner by my side. Now, here I sit in my bathroom in the middle of the night, wondering if this HUGE bloody booger thing that just fell outta me is the unwanted fetus. It looks like a cranberry covered wonton that, seriously, has the classic fetus shape to it. Now- instead of just flushing it down the toilet, I carefully put it onto a piece of
Toilet paper and instantly went online googling what the
Possibilities were of this gory splotch being the thing I wanted out of me- and if so- why do I feel so guilty about it? Why am I sitting here holding my tears back examining this thing looking for little fingers or toes? What the hell is wrong with me? And now I get it. I’m human. Despite the relief I feel at knowing I’m not going to be having another child, I feel horribly irresponsible and overwhelmingly selfish. I am sure this will not last. At least I hope it doesn’t. I’m sharing this story hoping someone see will share something similar and make me
Feel like I’m less
Of a monster for doing this not once but several times.

2019 United States

Painful but effective

Kaip kiti žmonės reagavo į jūsų abortą?

They encouraged it.

Emily Mars

O pesadelo de uma gravidez indesejada.

carolina

yo aborté y quiero contar mi experiencia...

Laura

Fue la mejor decicion para todos pero eso no cambia que yo amaba a mi bebe

dessa

fiz um aborto sozinha

Masha

This isn't my first abortion.... :'( My second one I am currently scheduled for.

Monika Koźlecka

Miałam aborcję medyczną i cieszę się, że mogłam z niej skorzystać. Uważam, iż…

Ananda

No es mi primera vez, es mi segunda vez que lo hago y no me arrepiento.

Tanya

I was not in a stable relationship and was already raising a daughter on my own.

mery elizabeth

tomando la decisión de mi vida

Briana

Experiencia dificil.. Pero inolvidable

diana

naprawde nie miałam wyjścia jestem miesiąc po,nie bolało szczerze mówiąc…

Aga... ta...(?)

zastanawiam się jak to przeżycie i fakt co zrobiałam wpłynie na dalsze moje…

Camila

E foi uma das decisões mais difíceis da minha vida .
Oi meninas,eu tenho 26 anos…

Lili

I interrupted my early pregnancy

Giovanna

Oi amigas, primeiramente gostaria de dizer que eu entendo exatamente o quê…

Gemma

The best decision for me.

Renata k

Fiz um aborto, foi uma escolha. Apesar do medo, foi muito tranquilo e não me…