Emmy Smith

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It was the best decision of my life

2015 Francia

I could easily check all those boxes. But the moment when you know that the test is going to show a plus sign and you don't want it, it is a nightmare on earth. I'm a person who doesn't like children and I am always careful. I was just so disappointed and ashamed of myself, and I still am. I don't want to talk about this ever again and I just need to bury it somewhere deep. I was also sure about my decision and very relieved that I live in a country where I can choose the destiny of my life by myself. I felt so stupid and I was feeling so sorry of myself. I wanted just sleep and pretend that nothing was wrong, but everything was wrong and it needed to be fixed soon.

This was the cheapest way to proceed (legally with professional help) and I thought it would be easily done. But in France you need to wait a week before the doctor can start the abortion, in case you change your mind. I thought that the medical way would be the easiest and less painful but I was really wrong. I took the first medicine and it didn't have any effect in my body. 48h later I took the second one and it hurt so much that I couldn't see or walk. I wanted to go home but I couldn't do anything than sit outside and wait for the pain to go away, but it didn't. I wanted to throw up because my legs and my whole upper body were in the most horrible pain that I have ever experienced. If I could choose now, I would do the surgery.

I know it's a cliche to say this but it just wasn't for me. I fell in love with the wrong person at the wrong time. He doesn't even know about any of this, but every day I would want to tell him my story. I would want to make him feel bad about leaving me the worst time ever. But I don't. It doesn't matter anymore, I am strong enough to get trough this by myself.

L'illegalità del suo aborto ha influenzato i suoi sentimenti?

It is not illegal in my home country or in the country I am living in right now. I think all women should have the right to do this and make the decisions of their own bodies and lives.

Come hanno reagito le altre persone al suo aborto?

I was and still am to scared to tell anyone. I only told a two people about my positive test and I knew immediately that I am going to end it as soon as possible. My closest was supporting my decision and helping me to get it ended.

katrina nicole

the only time i look back is to say thank god

Adhi

Saya masih duduk di kelas 3 SMA saat melakukan aborsi. Saya sudah pacaran…

Katie

Nie klasyczna wpadka. Brane pigulki nie zadzialaly. Za duzy miks z innymi…

P. C.

Fiz um aborto e senti vergonha de Deus, mas fiquei aliviada.

Maggie

Desculpa não te ter dado uma chance de sobreviveres, mas fiquei demasiado…

Karin

Zrobiłam to!

Wiadomość o ciąży:

Mój cykl menstruacyjny zawsze wynosił 28 dni

Luna

Aún grito perdón

Cristina

No fue bueno pero fue lo mejor.

Dulcinea Vázquez

Las pastillas tardaron un poco mas de 3 horas en hacer efecto, no presenté…

Brenda Rojas

Yo aborte, pero aunque no me siento orgullosa, tampoco me arrepiento.

Emily

It isn't and shouldn't be as taboo as it is made out to be.

Natália Sampaio

Abortei sim! Não foi fácil. foi um dos momentos mas difíceis da minha vida, mas…

NICOL

No tenia mas opciones

Ezzah candra

Untuk kebaikan semua anggota keluarga

Baby

Nunca me senti tão sozinha!

Nastka

Spóźniał mi się tydzień okres, więc zrobiłam test wyszedł dodatnio, drugi i…

CPA

Olá, tenho 24 anos e fiz um aborto com aproximadamente 8 semanas. Fiz questão…

Jes

No fue facil pero lo hise y me ha hido muy bien! Fue mi mejor decición!

Júlia

Fiquem tranquilas, vai dar tudo certo.