Emmy Smith

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It was the best decision of my life

2015 Francia

I could easily check all those boxes. But the moment when you know that the test is going to show a plus sign and you don't want it, it is a nightmare on earth. I'm a person who doesn't like children and I am always careful. I was just so disappointed and ashamed of myself, and I still am. I don't want to talk about this ever again and I just need to bury it somewhere deep. I was also sure about my decision and very relieved that I live in a country where I can choose the destiny of my life by myself. I felt so stupid and I was feeling so sorry of myself. I wanted just sleep and pretend that nothing was wrong, but everything was wrong and it needed to be fixed soon.

This was the cheapest way to proceed (legally with professional help) and I thought it would be easily done. But in France you need to wait a week before the doctor can start the abortion, in case you change your mind. I thought that the medical way would be the easiest and less painful but I was really wrong. I took the first medicine and it didn't have any effect in my body. 48h later I took the second one and it hurt so much that I couldn't see or walk. I wanted to go home but I couldn't do anything than sit outside and wait for the pain to go away, but it didn't. I wanted to throw up because my legs and my whole upper body were in the most horrible pain that I have ever experienced. If I could choose now, I would do the surgery.

I know it's a cliche to say this but it just wasn't for me. I fell in love with the wrong person at the wrong time. He doesn't even know about any of this, but every day I would want to tell him my story. I would want to make him feel bad about leaving me the worst time ever. But I don't. It doesn't matter anymore, I am strong enough to get trough this by myself.

L'illegalità del suo aborto ha influenzato i suoi sentimenti?

It is not illegal in my home country or in the country I am living in right now. I think all women should have the right to do this and make the decisions of their own bodies and lives.

Come hanno reagito le altre persone al suo aborto?

I was and still am to scared to tell anyone. I only told a two people about my positive test and I knew immediately that I am going to end it as soon as possible. My closest was supporting my decision and helping me to get it ended.

Abree

Medical abortion at 9wks 5days

Francis

Una decisión consciente de vida

Zoe

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Na

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Ma N

Y fue un proceso duro física y emocionalmente.

Ray

Toda mulher tem direito à um aborto seguro, não importa quais sejam seus…

Raquel Monterrey

I spoke with the spirit of my child before my abortion. That spirit who was…

Samantha

Grow Yourself, Before You Grow a Baby.

Ale

Muy difícil decisión

ROCÍO

Lo logré....estoy tranquila

Melodie

J'ai avorté il y a 4 ans et demi

Lise

I had an abortion and I don't regret it. It was a hard decision but one I knew…

KiciaKamcia

Nie wahajcie sie, jezeli czujecie ze musicie.. zrobcie to

Julieta Iovaldi Curutchet

Decidí desde el principio no compartir esa experiencia con la pareja de ese…

Fran

YO DECIDÍ

Andy

Decidí sobre mi futuro.

Giovana Cardoso

Fiz um aborto com 10 semanas e 2 dias de gestação