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It was less painful than expected

2019 Zuid Korea

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I think I moved on from the abortion but sometimes, it still crosses my mind thinking what might have been if I continued the pregnancy. Me and my boyfriend wanted another child but it's just that we are not financially ready.

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I was 6 weeks pregnant when I knew. I was not bothered at all when my menstruation was delayed because I was confident on my period and fertility tracker. But like many other method of contraception, mine failed. And I was in a very difficult circumstances that although I am going steady with my 3-year boyfriend, we decided we can't raise another child yet as we have children from our previous relationships. I contacted women on web and other people on the internet asking for help and another female advised me of surgical abortion which is a bit costly. And so I seeked helped from WoW, and I'm glad I did. After I transferred the donation, the shipment was processed immediately. I was so anxious while waiting for the delivery because as WoW pre-warned, the tracking system is not updated, yet I was assured the package will arrive as expected. It did, at exactly 2 weeks. By then, I was 9 weeks and 5 days pregnant. The pills arrived at friday, so at 9pm that day I took the mipefristone with water. And then I went to work on Saturday. at Saturday 830pm, I took 500mg of tylenol and waited an hour before taking 4 misoprostols under my tounge as instructed. After 30min, I swallowed the remains. 15 min after taking the first dose of misoprostol, I started shivering so bad, I was having chills, my whole body was shaking I can't even hold my phone. I covered myself on a blanket which is of a little use and my boyfriend covered me with a winter jacket which gave a little better relief. at 1020pm I needed to go to the toilet but it was not a diarrhea, It was a normal stool. I notice small amount of blood came with my pee. I went back to our room, still shivering. my boyfriend was very supportive asking me what I needed, to eat, to drink, and assist me in bed because my chills are really strong. I lied down on my left side and fell asleep despite the cramps. after an hour I woke up, I felt blood coming out from me so I went to the toilet to change. I soaked one maxi pad and as I sat in the toilet, I felt and heard a blob of blood came out from me. I did not take a good look at it, I glanced at it really fast and flushed it right away. I washed and changed to another pad then went to bed. I ate an apple and banana. and drank powerade a bit. then i slept again. at 1 am, I'm feeling bearable cramps so I took another 2 misoprostol under my tounge. at 2am I felt blood come out again so I rushed to the toilet and passed another blob and had diarrhea. I changed my second pad to third. Then I ate 2 bananas as I felt I am starving, drank water and lie to bed. I slept at around 3am, woke at 4 anticipating to feel another painful cramp but only mild ones occured. had a good sleep until noon the next day, still feeling a bit tender breasts, and have slight bleeding. I am still worried of incomplete abortion because I've read horrible testimonials about excruciating pain which I did not have. Contrary to what I've read, my experience was not that painful. the bleeding lasted for 3 weeks and it was very light. then I had my period 4 weeks after I had an abortion. As I am writing this story, it is 2 months now when I took the pills.

financiele situatie gezinsgrootte

Had de illegaliteit van je abortus invloed op je gevoelens?

somehow, it did.

Hoe reageerden andere mensen op je abortus?

They are saddened by my decision but still supported me

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