I cry. Going into the decision I was strong and certain that I wanted to have an abortion. That has not changed, I am still sure it was the right decision for me. It is hard to understand the mixed feelings, but I am being honest. This was my first pregnancy, and I don't know if having a child is going to ever happen for me but I am at peace with that. I hope this helps someone else. I think it is ok to cry, to feel sad about the situation and through all the sadness still know that you made the right decision.